Episode 413: How I Get Myself Back On Track When I’m Overwhelmed [Real Time Personal Update]

Have you ever been busy re-writting something you’ve already written? Do you feel like you have you fallen behind with things and feel like you’re off track?

This is exactly what was happening for me at the time I recorded this episode.

What I share in this episode is exactly what I would say to my coach or if I were to call Renae and talk it out with her. But instead I decided to pull out my podcast microphone…

I was in the thick of feeling overwhelmed and overworking. I found myself re-working the scripts for the 5-Part Planning Series over and over again.

And that’s a sign to me that I’m getting in my own way and I’m off track. I felt the pressure feeling like I just need to do it “right”, I felt rushed and impatient. In this energy I know pushing through these feelings wasn’t going to work.

Tune in to hear the discussions I have with myself to so that I can get out of my own way and back on track with recording the 5-Part Planning Series. 

I hope that this episode helps you when you are in one of these moments to not add a layer of shame… It’s so easy for us to have thoughts like “I shouldn’t be getting in my own way because I know better than this.” 

I’m sure we’d love to always be on top of our work, knowing everything is moving in the right direction. But…

Of course we are going to get in our own way and of course we are going to get off track – no matter how smart we are. This is apart of being human.

So don’t make yourself wrong, don’t feel ashamed for it.

I want to invite you into the possibility that it’s normal for this to happen and nothing has gone wrong it’s just a matter of calmly getting yourself back on track.

Tune into this episode to hear how I work through getting myself out of my own way and back on track.

Find the full episode transcript and show notes at samlaurabrown.com/episode413.

In This Episode You’ll Learn:

  • How I talk to myself and work through my overwhlem in real time
  • The discussion I have with myself so that I can get myself back on track and in flow with recording the 5-Part Planning Series
  • How I come up with new possibilities for myself
  • How to embrace the human experience of getting in your own way 
  • My experience of writting a script VS going with the flow
  • What you should be asking yourself instead of asking yourself “what is the right thing to do?”

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Introduction

Hi and welcome to another episode of The Perfectionism Project. A podcast full of perfectionism advice for entrepreneurs. My name is Sam Laura Brown, I help entrepreneurs release their perfectionism handbrake, so they can get out of their own way and build a fulfilling and profitable business. I’m the founder of the Perfectionist Getting Shit Done group coaching program, which is otherwise known as PGSD. And for even more perfectionism advice to help you with your business. You can follow me on Instagram @perfectionismproject.

Sam Laura Brown

Right now I feel overwhelmed. I feel like I’m putting pressure on myself, I can feel myself overworking and wanting to say the right thing. And so I thought now would be a great time to record a podcast episode. And to share how I work through stuff like this in real time. There’s a thing that people say, in the world of coaching, sometimes, which is that you shouldn’t share anything you haven’t yet figured out and that you are in the thick of, but I personally have been helped the most, by hearing people share things when they are in the thick of it. So that’s really what this episode is. It’s me not having all the answers, but sharing my process my decision making in real time, so you can see what it looks like.

So to get specific with this episode, because I think that’ll be the most helpful thing. What I’m working on today is creating the Planning series for the upcoming PGSD launch. So PGSD stands for perfectionist getting shit done, which is my 12 month group coaching program for perfectionist entrepreneurs, we are opening the doors again in September for our October cohort. And so I’m creating this planning series to really help you understand and learn how to plan properly as a perfectionist. So that productivity isn’t this uphill battle where you have to hope and wish and pray that you’re going to have a good week, you’re actually able to take control of how productive you are when you’re planning properly. So I want to teach you about that, and really have this series be something that is incredibly valuable for you, regardless of whether or not you sign up for PGSD.

So with this, I have in my power planning tasks relating to the Planning series creation. And I talked about this a little bit in the most recent episode, where I shared a look at a productive week in my life. And to summarize that very briefly what I mentioned as it relates to this planning series, because it will help you understand my thinking in the present moment. Last week, I had in my calendar to create the Planning series. And actually the internal due date that we had for me doing that was Thursday. So what I did on Tuesday was I really took a bit of time to think about why was it that I was we recording episodes, when in fact, the launch that we did in January 2022 was our most successful launch in 2022 as it related to PGSD, and the Planning series that went out on the podcast has helped so many people, we’ve gotten such great feedback about it.

It resulted in the goal of having people sign up for PGSD and those people going on to be incredibly successful. So why was it that I was going to be recording the episodes when we already had something that was really solid. So what I did on that Tuesday afternoon, was I put the transcripts in otter.ai. And I went through the transcripts and really familiarize myself with what was said in those episodes, because I recorded them a long time ago. I haven’t listened to them since so I just sat with okay, what was actually there. And I try my best to be objective about it because it is challenging sometimes to listen to yourself, and to not focus on what wasn’t clear or what could have been improved.

So after I was going through that process, and I did share in the most recent episode that after doing that for a couple of hours, I just hit a wall, I needed to wrap up my day because I just wasn’t able to think clearly it was the end of the day I was tired. So I went through that. And then the next day on Wednesday, I was then met with this question of what am I going to do about the Planning series. So I was reading a book called The Art of Possibility. And that talks about being a contribution and enrolling, like what it means to enroll someone in possibility. And I just felt really inspired by that and connected to myself through that. And I decided that for me to be a contribution with that series. It would mean instead of there being 50 minute long episodes that I would rerecord them the same concepts that were in that initial planning series because they all still hold true.

But I would rerecord that series and have it be more simple, more concise, more to the point so that is easier for you to digest for you to understand what’s important for you to start planning properly as a perfectionist. And I also decided that scripting out the episodes might be the best way to do that, to really have things come across clearly. And this decision for me after doing 400 podcast episodes, the majority of which have no script and just briefed up points. That decision was a really interesting one. And it felt like, okay, maybe this is actually the way that I should be doing podcast episodes. You know and I think even in that episode I mentioned like, Okay, this is the new way, now that I’ve done 400 episodes, it’s time to really think about how I can deliver even more value.

And so I began writing out a script for myself for those episodes and thinking about, if I only had 15 minutes, what would I say? And I will say that exercise was really helpful in thinking about what are the key things to say, and ordering my thoughts around that. The interesting thing, though, when I reflect on it is that I have already done that in so many ways, by teaching in PGSD. And different content that I’ve created over the years around planning properly as a perfectionist, that’s the thing that I coach on and help perfectionist entrepreneurs with. And I teach, like, I know that topic inside and out.

So it was interesting that I decided that I needed to be more concise about it, and that I couldn’t just trust myself to be concise about it in the way that I normally record, which is, as I mentioned, having brief notes, and then doing what I’m doing right now, I literally don’t have a single note in front of me, I’m recording this on quick time, I’m at a co working space, I’m sitting in one of the little telephone booth things, I have no notes in front of me, I’m just talking. And this is how I like to create podcast episodes, this is my favorite way to do it. And yet I found myself with this idea of okay, maybe scripting is a thing that I need to do. And as I was writing it, I was also thinking, Okay, this is going to be so helpful for the emails that we’ll be sending out and for our social media content and anything like that.

And for Renae, who’s our marketing manager, to really have all the ideas distilled down for her. And so something that that Art of Possibility book talks about as well. I think in the last chapter about creating a framework for possibility is that you can be on track and off track with being a contribution with enrolling people in a possibility. And that it’s so powerful to just know that we start on track, and we will get off track. And then we can see that and just get ourselves back on track that it’s not a problem being off track. At least it isn’t my interpretation of what was shared in that book. But it’s not a problem, we can expect it to happen. We can expect as that book calls it the calculating self to come in and really start thinking about things in an unhelpful way, we can just notice that and get back on track.

And that’s really what we do with our power planning. It’s a way to notice that and to get ourselves back on track. And so that is what prompted me to record this episode is that because of my power planning, I was noticing that I wasn’t sticking to the timeframes that I had created for the scripts. And so when I was doing this on Wednesday, I started scripting out, let me just actually look at my power planning. So on Wednesday, I started working on the script for one of the episodes the first one. On Thursday, I continued working on that. And I can no as a cue to myself that when I have a task in my power planning after I’ve done my little tweaks to update the task and reflect what happened, if it says continue working on something like that assigned to me that I am really starting to overthink something. But I did a little bit more on Thursday, I recorded episode 412. And then I had three days off.

And then yesterday I was doing my power planning and I started with that part one script again. And so this is another sign to me of like, Hey, I had planned to finish that. But I haven’t so something’s going on there. Then what I did when I was power planning yesterday is this morning, my plan was to have each of the episode outlined scripts, whatever you want to call it completed to give myself half an hour for each. And then I went I got to my working day this morning. I looked at my calendar and I found myself really thinking that again and like okay, maybe I just have 90 minutes. I really condense it down because I could feel I was overthinking so in this… In the moment. I’m really trying to strategize about okay, how can I frame this so that I stopped overthinking it?

And the answer my brain gave me was okay if we just constrained further and be more concise, but then I found myself reworking it over and over again. And, and so it’s really assigned to me that I’m getting in my own way that I am off track that, that isn’t a bad thing I just know so well at this point, that pressure a feeling that feeling like I just need to do it right. And I feel like rushed as well as I’m very impatient. And at the same time things take so long and like they take longer because I’m impatient. And because I feel pressure to do it, right. So I noticed that and that, to me is just a sign of like, okay, hey, we need to zoom out here, we need to take a look at things me pushing through, this isn’t gonna work like it feels like I’m walking through mud and not in this way of like, I’m doing something courageous and putting myself out there.

And to me, I just know at this point, the distinction between that feeling of like, this is something that is scary, but it’s also sending me in the right direction versus like, this is me trying to control. This is me trying to do things right and be perfect. Like that real feeling that I think we’re all familiar with as perfectionist, it’s this really kind of constrictive, like, frat feeling almost. And so that’s how I was feeling right before recording this episode. That’s how I was feeling at the beginning of recording this episode, just this pressure of like, I have told Renae, that by 1pm, I’m going to be sending her the scripts so she can read them. And we can have a meeting this afternoon to talk about it. And then on Thursday, which is my next working day, I’m going to record the episodes.

And just knowing like, why am I not trusting myself to do it in the usual way. And on the drive here, I was listening to a couple of PGSD coaching, call replays. And I love the fact that I get to listen to the call replays, I coach on some of the PGSDer. Oh my goodness, PGSD calls , we also have Michelle and Aditi, who are PGSD coaches. And so I was listening to the end section of one of Aditi’s calls and then one of Michelle’s calls, and just the stuff they coach on is this stuff that is so helpful for me as well still, because these principles like if you are into personal development, if you are into really understanding yourself, you will know that it’s really about mastering the basics. Rather than trying to know all these advanced things like it always comes back to the basics, and really getting a deeper, more nuanced understanding of those.

So having Michelle and Aditi coaching, PGSDers on there, perfectionism and productivity and like, all the things like that, it’s so helpful for me to hear and I can relate to so much of it. So in those calls, they were just talking about a few of the concepts we talked about on the podcast here and PGSD and about why is it that if something is easy, we feel like it can’t work. And we feel like it’s not going to be sustainable, like this desire to have things be hard so that we have this sense of control. Like if I’m working hard, then at least I know if I’m successful, that I earned it, and I’ll be able to keep it. And I think it was Aditi coaching Rachel, or maybe it was Michelle, who was coaching Rachel on this. Rachel’s an artist she’s one of our PGSDers, and she was just sharing how for her it feels so hard to believe that doing things in an easy, simple way, would actually work and keeps finding herself wanting to overcomplicate things.

And I couldn’t help but reflect on how that was exactly what I was doing that I was thinking when me just talking on the podcast and chatting. That can’t be the way that we get to our growth goal this year of a million in revenue. And beyond that, like that can’t be the way I need to do things bigger and better. And I have talked about this topic on quite a few podcast episodes recently. Because at this stage of the business, this is something that I’m thinking about a lot, which is how can I just get out of my own way and let myself do the things that I know I need to do. And now for me specifically that I have delegated so much of what was on my plate in the early years of my business, like I’ve delegated the marketing. I’ve delegated so many other things that really for me now it’s about the coaching and developing intellectual property and the coaching tools.

And so now I have all this space and time to do that. And so my brain just wants to overcomplicated it just wants to believe that the way that I do it that has worked isn’t going to keep working any more and if I’m taking things seriously than I need it to be hard, like, if I’m going to be professional about it, then I guess to some extent, I need to have a script, I need to be articulate, I need to be concise. The interesting thing, though, about being articulate and concise is that I find I can be quite articulate and concise when I just get myself in the right mindset. And I’m very clear on what I’m communicating and who I’m communicating that to. And I’m trusting myself to choose words that will be helpful, and I’m letting myself really have the time to just sit in idea and communicate an idea.

And so it says idea, and perhaps you can relate to this, where you found a way that works for you, and you have a goal ahead of you that you haven’t achieved before. And the saying of What Got You Here Won’t Get You There, has you overcomplicating things. And it is so, so interesting to just No, like, I believe in that statement in so many ways of what got you here, won’t get you there, there are changes that needs to be made, there’s an evolution that needs to happen for you to be able to grow into the person who can achieve the goals that you have. But at the same time, it’s really about just getting further and further and further out of your own way. And really being able to trust yourself and stay connected with yourself. Rather than what we’ve often think is, well, I need to start doing things in a more professional way in a more legitimate way in the way that everyone else is doing it. Like it’s cute the way I have been doing it, but that’s not going to work anymore.

And there are some circumstances where it is the case, we need to really change what we’re doing. But if I think about like, what would it look like, if I just trusted myself with the Planning series, then I wouldn’t write a script. And even just me saying that it’s like, before, when I was self coaching on it. I was like, if I say that, then I’m admitting my poor self, who decided that was a great idea is wrong. And so it’s almost like we want to double down on the idea we had, that we now know isn’t the best fit or that it wasn’t exactly a clean idea. There were some thoughts and assumptions underpinning it that we hadn’t really noticed or hadn’t really realized. Were unhelpful, or were unfounded. And so because passed me last week in a moment of inspiration and feeling connected, decided, Okay, what if I wrote a script out for the episodes, and I can still riff and go off the cuff, but what if I really just tried to think about it like, it’s this concise thing.

It just that, that resistance to making my past self wrong, and just letting myself continue down the path I’m on, just so I don’t have to be wrong about her realization I had last week. It’s so interesting to notice that and I had I think it was Brooke Castillo in one of her podcast episodes in the Life Coach School, years ago now mention, as phrase that was basically like, if you are walking down the wrong road, turn around, like it’s never too late to turn around. But we tried to just double down on it, we think, well, if I just push a little harder than maybe it will work. And I’m all for experimenting and trying new things. And I think for me to keep moving with this, it’s really important that I don’t then label my last few workdays as a waste of time, and I should have just trusted myself.

And now I’m back at square one, because I’m just going to end up recording of the notes I already had and trusting myself to communicate the ideas. And I could have done that last week and being so much further ahead right now. Instead of doing that, it’s like, Hey, I had an idea that it was going to be helpful for me to write a script. And I don’t want to be all nothing about this either. Like there might be a time in place for me to script things out. And I’m also not deleting that. And we still have that as an asset that can be used and turned into emails and different things. Like I think some of the realizations around how to explain things or teach things will convey things that have come from that exercise has been so helpful.

But regardless of whether that was the case or not, me really just knowing that I needed to have that idea and trial it go okay, I’m going to experiment with writing the script. And I’m going to change the deadline for the Planning series. It’s still workable, like we’re still getting things done weeks ahead of time. So that’s not an issue at all. But it should have been all it just needed to look at it now like a little alarm bell of like okay, why am I changing the deadline, it felt very legitimate and justified at the time but anytime I am significantly changing a deadline. It is such a good way to check in. And this is why having power planning and a tool that helps to actually set deadlines for yourself, so you can notice when you’re tending them is so powerful.

When we are working from a to do list, for example, or we don’t really know where we want to get things done, it’s just this sooner, the better mentality, we don’t get these insights into our brain into our decision making, and into the thoughts behind why we do what we do and why we aren’t doing what we had committed to doing. So the deadline for that was this week on Thursday, so that had been changed. And yet, I just found myself wanting. So just wanting it all to be perfect and off track. As I mentioned, I found myself not actually being in that energy that I was in, on Wednesday, when I made that decision about being a contribution, and enrolling and really being connected to myself. Like when I started writing this script, on Wednesday, it was coming from a certain set of thoughts that were really helpful.

And then my brain started thinking, okay, now I have to articulate it clearly and get this concise and say the right thing. And once it goes into that, say the right thing I have to put a note, it’s not helpful, because me recording that episode with a thought, I need to say the right thing isn’t helpful for you, it isn’t helping you understand learn, and really be able to use a concept because I’m very focused on me, and how I’m being perceived when I’m thinking about saying the right thing, it’s really for my benefit that I want to say the right thing, not yours. But when I’m focused on being a contribution, that is when I’m able to be in self trust, and I’m able to have not even any note stuff. But the irony of this whole thing is I could record this whole series without a single note in front of me.

And I can trust myself to be able to create something that’s insanely valuable for you by doing that, and yet, I just found myself in this mentality of, okay, I’m going to write a script, this is a new way of doing it. And let me experiment with that. And then this morning, what I was really looking at is okay, now this script is getting too long. And I’m kind of getting away from the original plan I had, which was to write something very concise. So now I need to condense down the script that I have, so that I can really do it more in the way that works for me, which is if I do have notes or brief notes, and I’m very clear about like, what I need to read out, if anything, and then I get to riff about things, and share my thoughts, and then go back to the notes. If I am trying to read too many things at once. I find it very distracting and harder to communicate.

So I just found that I was wanting to have this condensed version of this script. And the thing that for me really tells me when I’m overworking something or overthinking something is that I find myself going back to the beginning and perfecting the beginning bits again. And I did this multiple times with creating the Planning series is that I would go back when I had a new idea about what actually be the best way to do the script. And to do my notes, I would go back and do that to the part one notes. So there are five parts for the Planning series. And I was up to I think, part three. And then especially as well, it’s like it’s more for our perfectionist brains, like it just wants to edit something that’s already been created and perfected and polish it then create something new and just keep moving for so my brain likes to just Okay, let’s go back to part one and condense this down. And just I could just feel myself doing this.

And I still let myself do I was still doing it. But having that awareness of okay, I’ve gone back to part one, I can see on my power planning that I’m actually meant to be in the third part right now I can also feel myself not really wanting to look at my power planning, because I know that I’m not doing what I had said I would do. And I feel pressure to get it right. So I don’t want to do what I said I would do because I want to just get this right. And I can make adjustments later. And just kind of in this mentality of what I’ll see how long it takes for me to get the script, right, rather than what my favorite thing is, probably if I had to pick something about power planning is being able to have that control over my productivity and to say, I’m going to get this done in 30 minutes, and have it be high quality and get my brain to figure out how to do that versus well we’ll see how long it takes and then it probably taking three hours and being completely over thought and overwhelmed. And not as helpful as it could be if I just asked my brain okay, what can we do to have this be highly valuable and for it to take this amount of time.

So I just noticed that I wasn’t doing that. And so had I recording this episode to talk through how I work through this kind of decision. So right now what I’m thinking about is what do I do moving forward? What decision do I need to make? What new possibilities can I create? So that I can get back on track with being a contribution with being growth minded about my zone of genius. And that’s a topic I want to talk about actually, in a future episode. I’ve been talking, as I said a lot about podcasting and coaching. And like how I can be as productive and aligned as possible with those things, and referring to this time zone of genius that is in the book, The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks. And I just noticed that because I have been using that term zone of genius, which is fundamentally a very fixed mindset perfectionist mindset kind of term in the sense that it’s this idea that something’s coming naturally to you that something you might have developed that skill over time and things like that, but there’s this element of it’s something that is flowy and natural and easy and effortless.

So when I’ve been thinking about my zone of genius in the past, especially, it’s this idea of like, well, I can’t actively work on my zone of genius, because it’s just my zone of genius. And so I just need to get out of my way about it, which it is trying to get out of my own way about it. But also, I’m really wanting to work on developing intentionally those zones of genius and being much more growth minded about them. So I do want to record an episode on that, I think, even with this whole idea of scripting episodes, and doing it in a different way, that was me thinking about, well, how can I develop my skill set further around podcasting, and communicating my realizations and epiphanies that come from myself coaching from coaching PGSDers and creating coaching tools? Like, how can I better do that.

And again, it’s trial and error. And I really need to be careful here not to make my past self wrong for having a hypothesis, that scripting would be helpful. And then it turned out that that actually was not coming from a place of self trust, and not coming from the place, I hoped it would, or I was thinking it would, it was more so coming from this, like, I need to do it better, I need to be more professional about it, I can’t just expect that, I’m going to be able to create an incredibly helpful podcast, if I’m just chatting. And so it’s like that blend of wanting to keep the fact that I am able to just talk and articulate ideas, and also developing my skill set around it. And really learning how to do that in an even more effective way without kind of dismissing that I am already able to do it. Like, I just want to make sure that I am developing from a space of like, I already do have a skill set around this. It’s not this natural talent. It’s a skill set that I have developed. And I want to develop it further. Versus like, Well, I kind of don’t really know what I’m doing. And now I need to start doing it right, because I’ve been doing it wrong the whole time.

So with that said, I want to do an episode in the future, about how to be growth minded about your zone of genius. But I have really been thinking about what that looks like and going forward as it relates to this. How can I be growth minded about this podcast series? As I said, How can I create a new possibility here? Like what do I want this to look like at the time it is right now it’s 12:11, I have committed to Renee, that I will send her my bids by 1pm. And I am recording this episode for you. But I think it is a really good use of my time to do it. Because I could just feel I need to talk this out. And it’d be so helpful for you to hear me talking about it working through it. So with this decision, I’m thinking about okay, what do I need to do here? And what are my next steps? And my favorite question, what would this look like if it was easy?

And with that question, that doesn’t mean, what would it look like if I put no effort in and I delegated everything else out to someone else? Like if I just kind of took the route of least resistance, the path of least resistance. It’s really about like, what would it look like if it was easy to create the result I want to create, we have to make sure that we’re not just thinking about the action being easy. We’re thinking about how do I make it easy to create the results that I want to create? So I think in this case, and having talked about the things that I have talked about in this episode, it really been about trusting myself to record those episodes, and letting myself record the episodes using the notes that we already have that I recorded those episodes from in January 2022.

And my brain like this is when my brain goes okay why don’t we just republish the episodes that we had, that was a plan or an idea that I had originally had when I was like, hey, is there any point me re recording it now? And I have learned so much in those parts? What is it 18 months since recording that original series, I know that I would be able to convey things in a more clear, more simple, more doable way. And I would be able to do it in a more concise way. And so it’s really I think, in this situation, not about like, Okay, what’s the right thing to do here? It’s really like I have a choice. I have options. And I’ve mentioned a couple of them. But there are so many more. And it’s such a great time to do in situations like this divergent thinking, okay, like what’s 50 different options I have, I might not want to actually do them. And I don’t think it’s practical to do them.

But I’m just gonna let my brain come up with ideas about what are the options that we have here. And so one of the options as I said, is re releasing those episodes. And another option is me recording those episodes based on the notes that I already had. Another option I have is to just finish writing out the scripts, give myself 15 minutes to do it and then record the episodes. And it’s in this moment again, I don’t want to be like, hey, what’s the right thing to do? But what would it look like if it was easy to get the result I want, which is a result of having a Planning series that is clear and concise and compelling, and really sells you on the importance of planning properly as a perfectionist and gives you what you need to be able to start doing that, okay, want as many perfectionist entrepreneurs as possible to really understand that the way you are planning your week is what’s making getting your own way. Being said that you find it so hard to follow through and focus like you might have other things going on as it relates to productivity, like we’re all people, you have many things going on in your life.

And our brain can have different things going on with it too. But if you’re a perfectionist, you need to plan in a way that works for your perfectionist mindset. And so I wanted to use that I want to convey that. And so when I think about if it was easy to do that, what I would do most probably, if I really let it be easy would be just to write myself probably five dot points, and then record the episode like I have this one because this episode I had no dot points for. And sure, maybe I could make it more concise. Maybe there was something insightful, I could have said that I didn’t remember to say or I didn’t think of saying. And if I had thought it through a little bit more than I would have done that. And it would have had, you know, been amazing for you. And you’d have had this incredible epiphany. But it’s really like trusting that media is sharing and feeling so connected to you.

And so real with what I’m saying like this is what I would say is I was talking to someone who was coaching me or I thought about should I call Renae and talk it out with her. But I was thinking like, I can just actually record this as an episode. So it’s just knowing that we can let it be easy. And we can get off track with that and just find ourselves over complicating things, and find ourselves wanting to do things the right way, the hard way, the professional way. And what if me recording the episodes like this is actually the right way for me to do it. I did mention that I have hired Aditi, who’s one of the PGSD coaches, who does human design and all of that kind of thing. To help me with really just giving myself permission, I think to just do the podcast in the way that feels best for me.

And to really kind of stay on track with that as much as possible. And to notice what I’m getting off track and to really just have space to explore what that looks like and the different ideas that I have for the podcast, that feel really good to me and doing it in a way that is going to feel good. And also feel bad that bad for the right reasons, bad in the sense that my brain has resistance, obviously, to letting things be easy. And so I am going to feel resistance at times to just let things be easy and to keep doing it in this way and to trust that it is working. So what I’m going to do is with this planning series, and it is going to be really started on the first of September, so you’ll hear it very soon.

If you haven’t subscribed to this podcast, by the way, I highly recommend hitting the subscribe button so that you will automatically get the episodes when they come out. And PGSD is opening for enrollment on the 10th of September. So that’s for our October cohort of PHSD, it’s going to be such a great time to join us, you’ll be able to learn how planning really begin mastering it before 2024 even begins. And so we’re going to be able to set yourself up for such an incredible year. But with this planning series, the decision that I am making here on the podcast is that I am going to write the briefest of notes. Even when I was thinking about I need to write this condensed notes like have it be a one page summary then it was like okay, but now it’s a two page summary. That’s fine, that’s fine. It can be a two page summary. Okay, now it’s getting to a three page summary. That’s fine.

Like, that’s just me, overworking it, and not trusting myself to be able to articulate my ideas, and to be able to convey them to you in a way that’s going to learn with you. And I know how to communicate things in a way that will land for the person that this information, advice, tips, whatever you want to call this, that this is for. I know how to do that. And so it’s really just keeping it to the very, very, very basic things. I want to make sure that I touch on in trusting that I know what to say and I will say what needs to be said when it needs to be said and just being in that energy like instead of focusing my energy on saying the right thing and spending so much mine power on that, and even as I was writing, I was like, I already say these things when I record like, I was just kind of writing out what I would naturally say, anyway, if I was recording that episode.

So instead of doing that, to just be able to have it be so concise in my notes, so that I can just do it in the way that I usually do it in the way that has proven to work. And we have so many people who love the style of this podcast, I personally love this, this style of podcast as a listener. It’s why I do it this way. So doing that, and really knowing too, that I can redo the episodes. Again, if I want to, I think I’ll wrap up on this. But it’s such an important thing to know, like when we’re in this all or nothing mindset, it can be this decision, okay, well, I’m not going to use a script. And I’m just going to have these concise and that’s what work for me. And so I’m just going to record it and like whatever comes out comes out. And that’s it.

And so we can then block ourselves off from the possibility and the backdoor of like, well, I can let myself do it again, if I want to like even though I know that, I won’t need to do it again, just having that option of if I’m not happy with how those episodes turn out for whatever reason, I can let myself record them again and have another shot at it. And my next attempt is like it’s okay, if there is a next attempt, I think we offer a big the first attempt, like we should only get one attempt. Smart people, intelligent people, people who are successful, get it right on the first attempt. And then that’s where that pressure comes in. And even with the scripting that I was doing that it’s just like, Okay, well, I need to get the words, right, because I’m only going to be recording this once. Instead of okay, well, I could just record it, as I would naturally say it.

And then I can listen back. Ideally, I would say for me nor myself a couple days later, ideally, not at one speed, like at 1.5 or two speed. And that’s how I listen to other podcasts often. So I find it really helpful to listen back to myself the same way I would have different podcasts and not it just helps me it kind of just smooth things out and helps me not focus on little things. But I would do that, and then I can make that decision. And for myself as well. I have Renae, who can listen back to it as well and give feedback on Okay, is it is there actually a need to re record it? Or is it just me being in my head about it. But having that option is so powerful. And I know that when it comes to the podcast, I’ve talked about how I just do like one take, then that’s the take.

And especially in the beginning, it was so hard for me to if I was letting myself edit things and letting myself re recorded that I just record it again and again and again, trying to get it right. And so me just knowing like, Okay, I’m just pretending this as live. And I’m just going to do it and have it go out. That really helped me get out of my own way. But also at the same time. And this is the nuance of it or that there are times where it’s just it’s helpful to know, I am going to act as if this is live and if it’s a one take kind of thing. And I know that if I’m not happy with it, for whatever reason, I do have the option to rerecord it, it just helps relieve some of that pressure for it to be perfect. And for it to be exactly how he wanted it to be.

So that’s what I’m going to be doing with this is that I am going to write very brief notes. Like I’m going to give myself about 10 minutes. I’m going to write those notes. I’m going to send them to Renqe. And then I’m going to record the episodes the plan is for me to do that on Thursday morning. So I’m going to record those episodes. And then that’s going to be it unless there’s a reason we need to rerecord it. Earlier today, I found myself as well wanting to jump into recording straightaway. And I can just I know whether I’m in that rush even if it feels good, like this kind of inspired rush, that there’s some kind of thought going on underneath that that isn’t helpful, that I’m feeling impatient about it.

Because it’s almost in that case, like this morning when I was I can maybe just record it and just see how I go. That it just felt like I couldn’t trust that if I wasn’t feeling like inspired about it or like in that case, I don’t think I would have been recording it from a helpful energy it would have been like attending to see if I can say the right things off the cuff that we just end up creating things or I guess, we end up not actually doing things in a way that helps build self trust and helps us to be more connected with ourselves be more aligned with our business with the vision that we have. And so anytime I am in that rush to just jump in and get it done. It’s just a sign for me okay, like I after this, all this talking, I’m done and feeling chatty now and all of I’m like, I want to just record the episodes today, I have the time to do that. And already, as I’m saying that I’m thinking, Okay, well, Renae and I have a meeting this afternoon, but I can just reschedule that she’ll probably agree with that, that’ll be fine. And then we can meet on Thursday instead, and I just recorded today. And by the end of today, it can all be done.

And there’s nothing wrong with that idea. But I think if I did do that, I will check it with myself after this. But if I did do that, then it’s really looking. Okay. What are the thoughts behind that? Is that me just wanting to get it over with because I’m just uncomfortable sitting in the doing of it. Like, I just want to rush to having it be done. Because I prefer completion than being in process like why can’t I just trust myself to be able to record it as planned on Thursday morning? Is there really any benefit in having it done today, in terms of self trust in terms of me creating the highest quality possible episodes, in terms of me really being true to what it is I want to do with this series, but also, with my own relationship with myself, it’s so important that we look at that question when we are deciding things that we aren’t just thinking about the outcome in terms of a task completion.

And we’re also thinking about, what is this going to do in terms of myself trust? What impact is this going to have on myself trust, will I be more trusting in myself, if I rush into something, and get it done quickly, so that it can be over with, and I can feel this relief that is done, because I’m worried it might not be perfect, so I just want to do it today to see, or, if in this case, I feel like for me to be trusting myself. It’s okay, the plan was for me to record it on Thursday morning. So after I finished recording this, I’m going to send Renae a message and say, here’s a situation, here are my notes for the episodes. And we’ll talk at 3pm. And then I’ll do my other work. And this is the I guess the final thing that I will say is when I was doing myself coaching this morning, and it was so interesting, because so as power planning was like, I didn’t have enough time to get things done and like have to squeeze things in. And that’s another little alarm bell to myself, I’m not thinking of the most helpful way.

But when I really looked at okay, if I was just to get these notes done quickly, and trust myself, then I was kind of having this sort of a but I don’t know what else I would do with my time. And so I think for me, it’s just really getting comfortable with having a lot more spaciousness. Now, at this stage of my business. I mean, we can create spaciousness whenever we want. But really, I have created a situation where I do have a lot of spaciousness in my calendar. And I do have time to be super thinking and looking at high level things. And it’s just so still unfamiliar, I haven’t created the self image that is normal for me to just have time to do that kind of thing. And to not have to be in the doing like there’s still that dopamine hit and sense of control that comes with like taking little tasks off and being busy writing scripts for the Planning series.

Instead of just like, hey, I actually know what to do what to say, we can have an incredibly successful launch just from me actually doing that and not overcomplicated. So I’ve ended up spending most of the morning, being busy with writing and rewriting these scripts, I haven’t even written anything for part four or anything for part five, because I kept coming back to the beginning again. So it’s just saying that, like, we want to also create for ourselves the opportunity to just be on top of our work and be ahead with our work. And knowing that it’s going to feel uncomfortable, especially if you are someone who falls behind on things and you feel like you’re never on top of anything. And there’s always something to do like it just it there’s a bit of whiplash that comes with being in the situation, like I’m on top of everything, everything’s moving in the right direction. Everyone’s doing what needs to be done. I just have this time to think about like, bigger picture long time, things that just it feels uncomfortable. It feels like I don’t know what to do. And so my brain created something for me to do with that time.

So I didn’t need to just sit with that question of like, okay, what is really a big needle mover for me at this point? In the business, what are the things that I can be focusing on? And letting those things be easy to we’re not trying to be all professional about them as well. So I will leave this here, I hope it’s been helpful to hear my thoughts and my process as I noticed myself getting off track and getting in my own way, and then the discussions I have with myself to get myself back on track. And I hope that from hearing this and just hearing that this is something that I experience, it’s going to help you when you are in these moments, to not add this layer of shame on top of or I shouldn’t be getting in my own way because I’m power planning, I’m in PGSD, or because, you know, I’m someone who’s productive, or I, I’m smarter than this, I should know better than this.

Like, it’s part of being a human how brain thinks like, I just, it just wants familiarity and certainty. And this sense of control. And of course, we are going to get in our way, of course, we are going to get off track. And so the skill of like the emotional regulation around just being able to notice when you’re off track, and just calmly get yourself back on track, is so incredible. And doing that more quickly. Like in the early years of my business, it took me initially, I would say two and a half years to notice, it was off track and get myself back on track. And then over time, it’s gotten quicker and quicker and quicker. To the point now where it’s usually a few days at most, or a few hours, or even like 10 minutes, and I’m like, hey, I can feel I’m working from not the right energy. And I know how to get myself back on track and back into flow. And I can keep going.

So don’t make yourself wrong about it. Don’t feel ashamed about I know that’s easier said than done. But I do want to invite you into the possibility that it’s normal for this to happen, and nothing’s gone wrong. And that is just really a matter of calmly getting yourself back on track, using your power planning to help you do that. That’s what I’ll be doing. And after this call, as well as messaging, Renae, that I can then now relook at my power planning. And so I’ll put a little walk in for another Power Hour, essentially a mini little power hour. And I will plan out my week, knowing what I know, now I have updated information. So I’m going to plan out the rest of the afternoon and Thursday, to take that into account. And to really decide like what do I want to put in my calendar in that time that I otherwise would have been busy with script writing, and asking myself those more uncomfortable questions.

So again, I hope it’s been helpful. And if you aren’t yet on the PGSD waitlist and you do want to find out more about becoming a PGSDer and being in our program, and what you get inside and all of that, then samlaurabrown.com/pgsd is where to find out more and keep staying tuned to the podcast, you will hear that Planning series coming very soon. That’s going to help you with power planning, really understanding the basics of it and begin to start doing that. And you’ll find out more about PGSD as well as part of that series. Because PGSD is where you get the coaching and support and community to really master it and to really also like just stop feeling so alone in your business. You need people around you who get you who get what you’re up to who really are able to be with you and cheer you on through the ups and the downs that inevitably come with building a business I really want to invite you into our October cohort. So I will be telling you more about that in the planning series. But I hope you’re having a beautiful day and I will talk to you in the next episode.

Renae Outro
Hey, it’s Renae puffing in here at the end just to let you know that on next week’s episode, Sam will update you on the end outcome. What was the end result of the conversation you’ve just listened to have with ourself. Um, yeah. And what ended up being decided when it comes to the five part planning series. Because yes, since Sam recorded this episode you just listened to. We had two conversations and Sam has began recording them and by the way, they are so valuable I started listening to them yesterday and today so I am super excited for the first of September for you guys to hear these planning series episode that Sam’s recorded. Anyways, until then, make sure you’re subscribed to the podcast, and Sam will update you all next week.


Author: Sam Brown